flourishing in subterfuge

Title: The Deconstruction of Sam Winchester

Disclaimer: Not mine.

A/N: I wrote this a long time ago--during S4, as best I can tell. It's completely and totally AU and was entirely speculative at the time, but since it's not doing anything on my computer, I'm posting it. sendintheklowns was kind enough to read it over for me. Remaining mistakes and wild AU-ness is entirely my own.

Warning: Character death.

Summary: It’s not seeing Dean go to hell that makes Sam realize it’s over.

( No, those were terrible times. )

A/N:  Thank you to such the nice to response to the first part!  Hopefully the rest doesn't disappointed.  All notes and disclaimers in part one.

Title:  Between the Lines of Fear and Blame 1a/4

Summary:  In the hunt for Lucifer, Sam is hurt and Dean has to embark on a quest to find his brother in more ways than one.

A/N:  For some reason, this fic scares me.  But since I wrote it and geminigrl11 threatened to beat me up if I didn't post it, here goes.  It's a four parter, set post S4.  I wanted to get it out before Kripke shows us his version of it.  Beta'ed by Gem and love given by sendintheklowns and altpointofview , who is still alive!

Disclaimer:  Don’t make me laugh, okay?

Title:  The Light That's Burning Up Inside

Summary:  Dean looks at the light and looks at Sam and wants to forget but can only remember.  Post 4.22

A/N:  I started a very angry fic post finale but as my emotions mellowed, I came up with this instead.  Given a beta by geminigrl11 , who helped the mellowness, and a once over by sendintheklowns , who is strikingly sane in contrast to me.  Also, Sam is awesome, isn't he?  We've got a fic exchange going on that's in the sign up phase for anyone who happens to agree.  You can check it out at summer_sam_love 

Disclaimer: Not mine.  Though, if they were, I promise Sam would get a lot more hugs.

( The Light That's Burning Up Inside )

Title:  That's What Family is For

Summary:  Dean and Sam reflect on their changing understanding of family.  Tag to Jump the Shark.

A/N:  So there are fifty billion of these tags out there, but I had it in my mind to write the h/c tag this ep so begged for.  Sadly, the boys are good at hurting but not so good at comfort.  That said, I tried to be honest with this fic in regards to both boys.  They're both in horrible places right now, and I think their relationship is dangerously strained.  Moreover, I don't hold either one "responsible."  They each have their role to play in this, and it was my hope in this fic to give each brother equal grounding.  I have a feeling that who you sympathize more in the fic will relate highly to who you prefer overall in the show.  I also feel like I'm rather harsh here--but, these two are rather harsh on each other, so I make no apologies and I stand by this in all its hurt and its very marginal comfort.  My purpose was to both deal with Sam's injuries while also dealing with the shift in Dean's emotions from when he first rescues Sam to the funeral for Adam.

A/N 2:  Thanks to geminigrl11  for the beta (twice!).  Also, this goes out to sendintheklowns , who I think could use a pick me up this week :)

Disclaimer:  Really, totally not mine.

( That's What Family is For )

A/N:  I'm glad part one resonated with as many readers as it seemed to.  One of the joys of fandom is connecting with other fans who can share and consider your point of view.  Bear in mind that I don't see either boy as perfect and that I think they're both trying hard in their own ways, but the fact is, they're pretty much too deep in their own issues to really know how to grasp one another.  Also this fits in canon, so don't expect a happy ending.